Sunday, 16 November 2014

Dark World


Feeling overwhelmed and frustrated with problems that arise everyday. 
Where are we to turn? Who can help guide us when we need it most? 

When I am at my most vulnerable, most fragile state I turn to my friends for help.  Is it fair to them to have to keep rescuing me every time I fall?  Is it fair to me to have no one there to help me when I need it most? 


Pain and Tears….

We look for answers with ever breath we take, we search the world to try and find ourselves, we ask the stars for guidance and we pray to a god we do not know exists.  We can only hope that someone out there is listening to our plea.


Saturday, 15 November 2014

She Is Me


This photo speaks to me...

She is beauty, a sexual woman, delicate yet powerful 
Men crave her and want to lavish her with riches, pleasure her in all ways 
She is money and weakness
Men want to protect her, to touch her and posses her
She is sad and broken inside
She is me.

Tuesday, 19 August 2014

Change

"Change" It is such a simple word yet holds such power.

We all walk around like zombies, roaming the streets in and out of work/daily life. What do we want out of life? I look around and see everyone in some sort of routine including myself and it bothers me. Change is the hardest thing we have to face in our lives. I can safely say this is one of the things that has held me back most of my life. The fear of changing, the fear of failure & even the fear of success! It sounds silly, but true and it is hard at any age and it doesn't get better as we get older and wiser, we just have to learn to accept the fear and accept that we have to evolve and change is a must in this life. We must learn to embrace it and push ourselves into the uncomfortable situation that we hate, but know deep down inside they are good for us.

So here I am in Costa Rica jumping in with both feet and feeling completely alone, working and trying to get use to this lifestyle. It has been very hard for me. It is a beautiful country and I am surrounded by all of its beauty and yet, the sadness remains, the emptiness and fears are present. Will this new life become just a simple routine just like the life I left behind?


Sunday, 3 August 2014

New Start

What does Diana want?

I keep asking myself this question expecting an answer. I moved to Costa Rica about 8 months ago. My plan was to experience something new, be independent, live my life on a beach and reconnect with my family again. I told myself I'd only be here for one year and then I would be back home with my sister and friends.  The months have flown by and the year is creeping up slowly.

I am anxious and stressed. 

My decision to stay longer was made recently because of work mostly. A tough decision, a struggle between my mind and my heart. I see a lot of potential here, but not only that, I see growth and  experience and that is what I came here for. On the other hand my heart feels broken being so far away from home and the people that I love and cherish so much.  The city life is great and I do miss it, but I feel like this is going to be a great challenge for me and I need to stay for that reason alone.

Everyone has a story, a journey... This one is mine.